My boyfriend

O wow i actually have a boyfriend.. the excitement... i could just die... actually i really like him but i dont think i will ever love him... actaullly i dont think i really ever want 2. love him @ least.. other ppl have good chances tho.. ppl alwayz say Summer y do u do that, y do go out with ppl that u really dont lik that much... just 2 have a bf?? well mayb... that but i think i just want 2 have sum1 even if its not sum1 i reallly like! I havnt felt the love lik i did when i liked "the munker" and i dont think ill find sum1 lik him again now.. so now im just with ppl i kinda like.. in an odd sucky way... thers alwayz sumthing else better... thers always that last romeo... and i just seem 2 b all jittery for highschool.. and sum1 says we need 2 go out this yr.. hmm wat can i say 2 that... no ive had a crush on his friend forever and im done with him... so mayb he does have a chance.. slight but hey its good for him... and ppl have a prob with my bf^ bc hes older then me by 2 yrs. hes 16 and hes n a wheel chair... which is cool with me i guess... and ppl say that all older guys want is ass.. well thats not true... @ least not him.. but i dont wanna b with him now.. i dont want a bf... i said that i wanna a long term relation, b4 but i lied.. i dont want that not with him... i dont wanna b with him anymore... i dont kno y.. well actually i do kno y but thats besides the point... anyway...hes a great but damn i think he likes me 2 much.. esp. when i dont really lik him that much... mayb ill stick it out for a few more days and see how it goes.. mayb i should do it b4 our 1 month of kinda goin 2 gether... and 5 days of really goin out.. i should just do it so that i can b done hurtn him.. please god dont let him fall n love with me im beggn u with all i got.make me mess up and have him brake up with me first.. i wont b hurt but im a good actor.. lol please really i dont want 2 do it.. but i dont want 2 not do it... leave it b or not b... this juleit has no love this this unromeo... Juliet