How im gonna do it.

Well, last night... i talkd 2 a good friend of mine LD, who lives n North Carolina yadayada been friends since the end of time and just seen him for the first time n 10yrs. recently... (hes halarious and so much fun 2 hang with) ANyway i told him that i was thinking about braken up with Justin, Last night's^ moaning and whineing, yes that would b him... Well i had this big plann and i was gonna b all lik im cheatn on u with sum1 and make my self look lik shit and then him b lik i dont think i wanna b with u anymore.. or he could say its ok we can work through it.. (im scared of that!!), or i said i could just make him made and have him say sumthing mean on accident but really for me on purpose and b lik i dont wanna guy that makes me cry.. or one of my friends... made nessy cry.. shouldve kickd his ass**.. but then suddenly.. LD^ goes " y don ya just say this isnt gonna work out..." I almost Gaspd.. Can i really b that easy just 2 say it ... is that all i have 2 say honestly is i dont want it 2 work out.. and so its not... mayb if i found him more lik attracive... physically hes lik whoa... hes got black hair and sum GORGEOUS blue eyes... tongue ring.. gadged ear... and sits about 4'11 n a wheel chair... < that could b stressful my mother said...< and once again shes right.. and emotionally and lik mental.. hes on the same boat but hes dockn earler.. hes 16, getn out of highschool.. only suposed 2 b the 11th grade, gettn his GED and moving out with his 18yr old sister... i can not deal with sum1 who has no parents right now 2 set ground rules for him.. dont want 2, dont have 2.. (sum times i love parents other time not so much)... so when im gonna do its allll a mystery.... how well i have an ok idea.. if i can do it... ????? Juilets confused......