"HELP me Max, Im feeling"
I feel like some one put their big hands around my throat and i cant breath. They just sqweeeezzz until my eyes wanna pop out.. and U know wat i think ther my hands.. I think im slowly sliping in 2 insanity. Lik the grinch. Lol with the conbo of school and My mother and Father... constantly bitching 2 me 2 get good grades.. as if im gonna fail on purpose 2 piss them off.. then i have 2 worry bout friends.. i want so bad 2 have classes with ppl i kno.. i like my old friends, new ones r great but i feel safer u kno.. if i dont kno anyone ill switch out so that i do... but anywayz i guess i really dont have much 2 say...
** o i am really irrated bc my mom will tell me all her problems and then when i try 2 help her or say sumthing i think she goes.. u dont kno anything shut ur mouth... if u dont want my fuckn opinion then dont tell me or ask for it.. and fuck just bc im young doesnt mean i dont know anything.. i hate when older ppl think they kno it all and we kno shit... lik when they say oo we know wat u guys do in highschool...and wat u think bout.. sex drugs and alcohol... wtf since we are n highschool and u havnt been n about idk 20 yrs.. y dont u let me tell u what u think about.. work.. how stupid and dumb i am.. how when u wer kids u did no wrong... how i need 2 clean the whole house just bc u go 2 work.. even thought school and work r the same thing... and analyising all my reactions to things that have nothing 2 do with you yet u think everything i do, say or thing bad about has 2 do with u..grr...and i am not My parents and im tired of being treatd lik a ANGEL by one (not bad bc i dont do bad stuff) and then A terrorizing lieing no god hore by the other... (who do u think that one is) *cough*** thats all i have 2 say bout that 2 day
posted by Juliet at 11:18 AM
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muffin.. yer mom doesn't think you're bad. She knows damn good and well what a good kid you are. I think she wants to protect you, and somehow that gets twisted and comes out in a way that makes you think she thinks you're bad.
She's been through a lot in her life, y'know? Sometimes she expresses her concern in the wrong way.. but it might help you to deal with it if you understand where it comes from.
She doesn't want to see you make the same mistakes she did.
She hates being alone, and you are the only person who has been right there by her, consistently for the last 15 years. You're trying to grow up and leave, and that's scary, even though it's right and good.
She wants to know what you're thinking and it's a lot harder to get that from you the older you get. That's normal, but it's very hard for a parent to deal with. All teens go through this with their parents, but maybe it is more intense with y'all because of how intense Grandma was with it.
But you know you can call or email me when you need to talk.. Your mom and I both love you to pieces, sweetie. :)
9:05 AM
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