Im Not The Same Me I Was Yesterday

I am begining 2 realize that everyday i am n highschool... i change... the way i walk, and talk, wear, say, do, learn, its crazy... I was told twice 2day i lookd pretty.. that hardly happends @ school.

and I had lik four different guys hanging on me.. feeding me gobstoppers (cody) holding me (rob)(trent) and sayn im cute(scott) but all in all.. i just wantd 2 b back n the cafe with vanessa just me and her again today eating lunch. talking about all the important things we have going for us.

I realize the importance of two great friends... one u can tell everything about sumparts of ur life.. and the one u can tell Everything.. it just sucks my Everything isnt so cool 2 other ppl... and my Sumthing... Shes a Sumthing 2 alot of ppl.. but i lik im her Everything.. and she could 2 but lik sumthings im afraid 2 trust her on.. lik idk..

Anywayz.. I could feel like Cody starting 2 like me again and i dont mind.. i can feel lik his like erdge 2 b around me.. but lik he plays t 2 cool for other ppl 2 notice.. he'll see me when its just him and just me.. and call my name and walk over casually lik he could find sumone else and walk away from me if he seems them but i can tell when he gets me and he kisses me on the cheek (how we say hi 2 good friend) the way he lik puts his hand on my waist idk.....

Today i found myslef walking over 2 where his class is and when Sara said," no i wanna go find rob and alex come on" I was lik, "naw im good.." and then i saw him headed towards me and i lookd away lik I was trying 2 find sumone else and he goes... "HEY"... aw.

My only probelm with all that his hes about 2 inches shorter then me.. and i cant see my slef kissing him (again) or lik being his girl and having 2 lik floow around with him or lik sit hold ands yatayata.. id rather b the way we r and lik enjoy time insted of making it a comentmint and have 2 b with them bc u going out with them..

U kno its lik with out saying "i want u 2 b my girl friend" or "i am ur girl" ur doing it bc thats the only way 2 show them u care or u want 2 b by them.. its lil things that dont happen when u r ther girl that makes it special... and when u say yes.. it like bcomes a job and it becomes sumthing u dred.. and i dont like cody enough 2 not dred it.. i like being with him and him but then i dont u know..

Wat You Have And What You Want Can Change Which Leads Me Back To Where I Started, I Am Not The Same Me I Was Yesterday....