Sometimes it can ONLY get worse.

There are alwayz ppl that r lookd down on.. In my first period class ther is this really cute popular gurl.. Shes from my school.. (which is odd bc only 500 r from my school and the other 900 r from various other schools) the only problem is that gurlz a bitch.. and i kno she looks down on me...
well theres this gurl that sits in front of me and i know this is mean but damn.. HER mother birthd an ugly child.. shes really not cute and even if she didnt have ratty hair and a bird beak for a nose she still would b classifid as the ugly gurl.. i like her but @ the same time look down on her...and i had a great revalation today.. who does she look down on... i see ppl as her equals and i doubt she looks down on them.. and then i realized it was US... she looks down on.. she thinks of us as rude and mean, caniving back stabbers which reall we r...
Then U know wat else i reallized this week... I DONT LIKE BEING STALKED.. grr.. this kid as lik faild 3 times and is supposed 2 b graduating next yr.. hes 17 and hes lik 5"2 nothing wrong with being short but hes ugly to... and freakky! Every time that I turn around that werido is lik right bhind me.. watching wat i do and who im with i can tellbecause hes lik staring
@ my friends lik waiting for us 2 say each others names...
For the past FOUR days i have been running, been hugged for a prolongd ammount of time by friends so he cant see me... being walkd 2 class.. and having sum of my best guy friends wrap ther arms around me til he walks away..
Now dont get me worng and say o u havnt givin him a chance.. he told me online which is where i met him thought a friend, becca who said he was nice.. lol Turns out he tried 2 kill her on the bus when she was n 6th grade.. put his hands around her throat and squeezd until my friend sara pulld him off... Well he told me that i saved him from killing him slef.. then when i was n NC and had only met him on internet he said and im quoting this from my myspace.. which i am close 2 deletin..........
I miss you.
I miss Staying in myspace talking witchu till I got Couch rot.
I miss telling you everything that was wrong with my life.
I miss you listening to my endless bitching and never once complaining.
I miss you having a solution to most of my problems.
I miss your rants about boys. (*on blogs not 2 him*)
I miss trying to change your opinion on boys.......
I miss Failing misserably. (*ewww and i wonder y*)
I miss the way when I was Borderline Suicidal you calmed me down and possibly saved my life.
I miss planning to hang out....... (i didnt**)
I miss those plans failing misserably
I miss you so much it hurts.
T minus 13 Days till you're back.I Miss You.XoXoXo~JuLiAn AbRiL~XoXoXo

GROSS AND I AM ENDING THIS WITH A EWWWWWWW!!